Shoot me Now.

Well,Im the sadest I think I've ever been in my whole life.Everything I thought I knew is wrong. The life I thought I was apart of is no longer waiting for me. I don't know what to do when I see him. I smile, he looks away. I wish he loved me. I wish he thought about me. I wish that when I loved someone as deeply as I loved him, they would love me back. I don't know what I did to deserve this, but I tried so hard, and I don't think this was needed if I needed to learn a lesson. This pain is not what anyone needs. I just wanted to be loved in the same way I loved. This doesn't just suck, it is tearing me apart. I miss you Sam Cafferty. I wish you loved me.